I'm currently working on a short film for our Final project in Multimedia. Ayun. HORROR ang nabunot naming gawin. My reaction? It's like WAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Anuba! pano ishushoot? Paano iisipin ang story? Kailangan ba true story? ano ba? Ang imagination ko pa naman talagang gumuguhit sa utak ko! waaaa! yung tipong pakiramdam ko totoong nangyayari? huhu
Pero ito nga. May story na kami! hhahah. Hindi naman halatang natatakot ano? Okay naman. Horro Suspense. MOSOYO! Excited na ako sa shooting namin.

Konting patikim. As you can see, ELVIRA ang Title.

The story is about Luisa, na may-ari ng resort na Villa Isabella at apat na magbabarkada na nagpunta sa Resort para magovernight. Since they are researching about the story ELVIRA who is said to be living at Liliw, Laguna. But they ended up encoutering ELVIRA'S kalupitan.

Know how? Then watch it kapag tapos na namin! hahaha

LOVE YOU! <3

Namiss kita, sobra!

Ito si John Carlo Bonifacio Lazerna. Hanggang ngayon saulo ko padin ang buong pangalan niya noh? Pero bakit ko siya naisipan gawan ng post? kasi BIRTHDAY niya kahapon. :) Ang nabati ko siya ngayon! hehe

Magkatext kami ng FGF ko (Fan Girl Friend) na bestfriend ni Carlo. Tapos sabi niya, "May pantawag ka? Kasama ko si Carlo"

asdfghjkl. Kulang nalang ipantawag ko na ang regular load ko! haha

Tapos...nung sabihin ng pinsan ko, "Unli Call ako" Nag rushed na ako na kunin ang cellphone niya at tumawag na sa fgf ko! abah naman! So ayun na nga. *ring* 'the number chuva'

waaaa. hindi sinasagot!

then...*ring* ..."Roane? or Zelle?"
ayan na, I said, "Zelle toh fgf!"
"Oh sige! ..Carlo! Si Zelle dali!"
I never knew na excited din siya na makausap ako..
"Zelle! Zelle R*n*!" O_O FULL NAME!
"Carlo Lazerna! Happy Birthday! :)"
"Thank you! Uyyy Zelle, namiss kita, SOBRA!"
"I miss you too!"

then usap-usap ng kung ano-ano pa
pero actually. ang tumatak sa akin yun katagang..."Uyyy. Namiss kita! SOBRA!" paran bang yun lang ang sinabi niya sa akin the whole conversation namin. ANG SAYA! after ng matagal na panahon, nagka-usap ulit kami ni CARLO! namimiss ko na siya sobra! Kung sana nangyari ang nakaraan na dapat mangyayari...hindi sana ganito. :( May girlfriend na siya..... hayy. Well. Hindi para sa akin db? Kaya hanggang ganito nalang kami.

Pero yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya noon ay hindi ko talaga sigurado kaya...ayon. Buti nalang..kasi hindi ko naman pala talaga siya mahal. Namangha lang ako dahil artista siya..na nag-kagusto sa akin? CHOS! haha

Hindi ko parin pala nakakalimutan. Lahat! Lahat ng moments namin. Na-stuck padin pala ako dun. Pero masaya na ako para sa kanya. ano kase...ang ganda ng gf niya...compare sa akin.MAS BAGAY SILA! haha

Ayon. Gusto ko lang ishare. OO! nalink ako sa artista kuno! wala lang. kakaiba ano? non-showbiz utot lang.

Soooo. that's all! :) namiss ko lang siya kaya naikwento ko.. LOVE YOU! GOD BLESS!

zelle

Siya si Caleb! ang lalaking mapapangasawa ko. :D haha

Anyways. kani-kanina lang...2 of my friends confessed to me na "IN LOVE DAW SILA KAY CALEB". asdfghjkl. ayoko na!

ewan ko ba kung anong mafifeel ko. Hindi ko tuloy mai-share sa kanila ang nararamdaman ko for caleb, :(

Natutuwa lang ako kasi....pakiramdam ko mahal ko na ang future husband ko. haha. LIBRE NAMAN MANGARAP DIBA? siguro kung agad natutupad ang pangarap, asawa ko na sana tong kagagwapong lalaking toh.

BAKIT KO SIYA PANGARAP NA MAPANGASAWA?

...kasi.

1. mabait. 
2. magalang
3. gwapo
4. may respeto sa babae
5. mas mahal niya ang DIYOS
6. KRISTYANO
7. follower of God
8. KRISTYANO
9. mahal niya ang Diyos at follower siya ni God
10. MAHAL KO SIYA

hahaha. maging 10 lang... ayon! parang siya na. eh!!!! masaya ako kapag kasama ko siya. although hindi ako ganun kinikilig..masaya lang ako. hehe

oh ayan huh~ walang makakalabas dito! baka malaman ng fans niyang sobra kung mag-react. 

loveyou! <3

-zee

Novel-Memories [Chapter 1&2]

Chapter 1 : My Broken Heart

Sa bawat taong nakikila natin. May mga memories tayong naiiwan sa kanila. At sa bawat memories nay un, either masaya yun o masakit. Hindi naman natin talaga nalilimutan ang taong naibaon na sa puso natin. Dahil ang pagmamahal mo sa kanya ang magpapaalala ng bawat memorya na inyong ginawa. Masaya man o malungkot. Lahat ng ito ay nanggagaling sa puso. Dahil mahal mo.

Madrama ba? Anyways. Ako si Zelle Santos. 18 years old at 2nd year College, taking up Information Technology. Inlove at mahilig magbasa at magsulat. Loner pero hindi EMO. In love ako sa bestfriend ko, si Sam or Samuel Magno. Bestfriends kami for 3 years pero di ko akalaing maiinlove ako sa kanya. Siguro dahil gwapo siya? Matangkad? Matalino? Sweet at maalaga? At higit sa lahat. God-fearing. Ang ideal man ko kasi yung God-fearing. Syempre, ang sarap mahalin nung lalaking kahit hindi ikaw yung number one sa puso niya, basta si Lord yung una sa kanya, ang saya ng buhay. :DD
Pero sa ngayon may mahal siyang iba.
Iba…
Iba…
Iba…
At syempre hindi ako yun.

Yung una niyang girlfriend, si Paula. Schoolmate namin nung highschool. Classmates kasi kami nung highschool. Kinaya ko pa nung magka-gf siya kasi bata pa naman kami nun.

Second niyang gf, si Joy. Classmate niya sa college. Bali magka-iba na kami ng school ngayong college. Pero this time, masakit parang mahal na mahal ko na siya. Syempre dahil bestfriend niya ako, gusto niya maging close kami ni Joy, pero di ko naman kaya kasi nga mahal ko siya. Tumagal din sila ng 8 months. Mas masakit nung tumakbo siya sa akin na umiiyak habang kinukento kung gaano kasakit yung breakup nila.

After 4months, hindi parin siya maka-move. Ginagawa ko na nga lahat para maayos yung puso niya pero wa-epek. Mas ginusto ko na nga nun na magka-balikan sila ni Joy , maging masaya lang siya.
And finally, matapos ang ilan pang buwan, nakikita kong nakaka-move on na siya. Minsan na lang niya maalala si Joy. At kapag sinasabi nya na magkaibigan nalang sila, masaya na siya. Syempre umaasa ako na baka ako yung dahilan kung bakit siya nakamoveon. Pero ang saklap ng feeling nung sabihin niyang naka-moveon siya dahil sa isang schoolmate niya. Si Hannah. Hindi man sila ni Sam, masakit padin kasi paulit-ulit na sinasabi sakin ni Sam na baka mahal na niya ni Hannah. Ang ganda ni Hannah kumpara naman sa akin.
Marami na nag-aadvice sa akin na kalimutan ko na raw ni Sam kasi baka mabaliw na daw ako sa sobrang sakit. Tama. Pakiramdam ko mababaliw na ako.

Mababaliw na.
Baliw na.


Chapter 2 : Empty Space

Mababaliw na nga ata ako. Feeling ko broken-hearted na ako ng bongga. Durog na durog. Pinong pino. Sa tuwing free time ko, makikita mo lang ako sa ES o ang tinatawag na EMPTY SPACE ng dept. namin. Empty lagi yun kasi wala naman napunta dun, suguro, bukod sa akin. Masarap kasi tumambay dun pero hindi pinupuntahan ng tao kasi nasa likod siya ng mga rooms at hindi madaling makita. Mas pinipili kong mapag-isa dun kapag walang magawa.

Nagtaka ako kasi pagpunta ko dun, may nakita akong gitara. Ibig sabihin may ibang napunta dito? Pero wala akong magawa ihh kaya kinuha ko yung gitara at tumugtog ako. Kinanta ko yung SET YOU FREE ng MYMP.

If loving you is all that means to me

Oo. Feeling ko una ang Diyos, tapos si Sam nalang yung mahal ko. Wala akong ginagawa kundi isipin siya maghapon magdamag.

Then being happy is all I hope you’d be.

Kasi mas hindi ko kinakaya na makita siyang malungkot dahil sa iba.

Then loving you must mean I really have to set you free.

Kahit parang mahirap, I set you free Sam.

Letting go is not an easy task.
When smiling feels like I must wear this lonely mask
It hurts deep inside
And I just cannot hide
When there’s anguish at the thought that we should have to part.

Parang ang hirap isipin na i-lelet go ko siya eh hindi naman siya sa akin? Pero hindi ko padin maitago na hinahayaan ko yung sarili ko na masakit tong ginagawa ko. Pinipilit kong kalimutan siya gayon hinayaan ko padin yung sarili ko na maging malapit sa kanya.

Tapos bigla akong naluha hanggang umiyak, humagulgol at sumigaw dahil alam kong wala naman makakarinig sa akin. Biglang may lumapit sa akin at pinunasan ang luha ko tsaka ako niyakap.

“Tama na yang iyak mo, hindi ko kayang makita kang ganyan”

Nagulat ako. Dahil hindi ko siya kilala.

“Kanina ka pa po ba jan?”
“Umm. Di naman. Simula lang nung kumanta ka. Madalas ka ba dito?”
“Awts. Nakakahiya naman. Opo. Madalas ako dito. Ikaw po?”
“Actually kanina lang. Sorry huh. Escape place mo ba toh? Galing mo nga pala kumanta.”
“Thank you po. Opo. Escape place ko toh.”
“Wag ka na iyak huh?”
“Bakit naman po?”
“Kasi mahirap para sa akin, burden ko yung makita ang babaeng naiyak.”
“Buti ka pa”
“Bakit naman?”
“Hindi kasi lahat ng lalaki tulad mo. Yung iba kasi, sila yung dahilan ng pag-iyak namin. Bakit ka nga po pala nagpunta dito?”
“Babalikan ko lang sana yung gitara ko”
“OH. Sayo pala toh. Sorry po ginamit ko ng walang paalam. Thanks”
“Ahmmm…”
Tapos bigla na siyang tinawag ng mga classmates niya.
“Ah. Zelle. Aalis nadin ako huh? Gusto ko pa sana magtagal kaso…
Kita nalang tayo bukas. Dito ulit.”

Biglang takbo.

“Wait. Bakit mo ako……”

Hindi naman siya lumingon.
“kilala?”

Actually, nawindang ako kasi alam niya yung pangalan ko pero dun lang kami nag-meet. Pero nung araw na yun, aattract ako sa kanya. (hihi). Matangkad, gwapo at may dimples. Natuwa pati ako sa gitara niya kasi nakasulat yung life verses ko. Proverbs 3:5-7 at Psalms 150:4.

Since hindi ko pa alam yung pangalan niya, hindi ako nakatulog dahil dun. Paano kung hindi na ulit kami magkita?

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND!

 ” Happy Birthday Bestfriend :) “

Yieee. same age na tayo. You won’t tease me na older. hihi

Anyways. Like I always say, “I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL”

Mas mahal pa kita sa first boyfriend ko. LOL

hmm. I know you’re happy today.

Ok! yan! so Birthday ng bestfriend / semi boyfriend ko. And the awkward part was, I DON’T HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY HIM A GIFT. :((

then I told him about it. and he said, “Nako, ayos lang yun noh. It doesn’t matter.”

TRUELALU na friend talaga. He’s a kind of friend that is willing to give you EXPENSIVE THINGS kahit in return, kiss lang yung ibibgay mo or just a simple hug. So adorable. Kaya I love him so so so so so so much.

Almost all my wishes and dreams na natupad ko na, andun siya. 

One wish I had, is yung sumigaw sa isang lugar na walang tao.

Then last 2009, he took me to someplace here in laguna , the we stopped for a while. Kami lang yung tao sa place then he said “SHOUT AS LOUD AS YOU CAN” then I shour. “MAHA LKO YUNG KATABI KO”

hahaha. i wish I had a photo from there. Kasi biglaan yun.

ok! endendend. nagdadrama na ako haha. I admit that I’m in love with him yet the sweet part is, “We are both waiting for the right time that God would tell to the both of us that we are for each other :)”

Dear Friend,

I'm not used of writing letters, but for you, I will write down one.

I can't keep myself from thinking of you. You always fill up my head with our memories.

I felt like dying when I don't see you around, looking at your pictures make me feel you're here.

If I could make time stood still, I will pause at the time when you held my hands, and I won't let go. It means nothing to you but it means a lot to me. Just a touch from your fingertips make me feel that feeling of electricity inside me. A smile from you makes me feel like flying. But remembering all these makes me cry. You're not mine.

I can't make you smile. I can't make you laugh and I can't make you fall for me. I can't blame you from falling in love with other girls, I wish I could. But among all these, All I want to say is, I love you. I'm not asking you to love me back, just let me love you in the best way that I can. Let me show you how much I care.

I love you and I always will.

God Bless!

                                                                                                                                                               Zelle <3

Top ten signs of TRUE LOVE

1. Butterflies in my stomach - This is the most commonly described feeling of someone that is truly in love. When you get around that special someone, this sign of true love will become obvious.
2. Trouble looking away - If you are with your true love, and you cannot take your eyes off of them, then you could be experiencing signs of true love. Then again, they may just have something stuck in their teeth at dinner so be careful. 
3. Others seem optional - One obvious sign of true love is that you do not wish to spend your time with anybody else. Most healthy love relationships get past this unhealthy side effect of true love, but in the beginning it is all about the two of you.
4. Love songs suddenly make sense - True love can make a musical wimp out of any man or woman.
5. Marriage lingers in your mind - Many people do not like to think about marriage under any circumstances. Still, when you are truly in love, the idea becomes more and more enticing. The thought of spending you entire life with them and building a family is not completely out of the question any longer.
6. You do not mind the flaws - This is a very powerful sign of true love that is great indicator of how far you have come in a relationship. If their problems, flaws, and bad habits are not something that bothers you, then you are on step closer to true love and a happy marriage. If you are looking for perfection in relationships, you will be very lonely in the end.
7. They are beautiful in  the morning - If you have ever woke up and kissed your wife or husband before they have brushed their teeth then you are likely experiencing true love at its highest level. Messed up hair, bad breath, and yesterdays stale cologne cannot overcome true love.
8. Children enter the picture - For the couple that decides that they want to have kids to make such a decision, true love is often the motivation. When you are really in love with someone, that special part of growing together becomes very attractive.
9. You begin considering them first - Again, this is a great sign of true love that you do not even realize is happening. When you think of them before you sometimes, that is a very good sign.
10. The kiss is more than a kiss - When you are truly in love and you kiss, it is not a normal kiss. Fireworks explode, and you feel weak in the knees. If you are not feeling those fireworks, and you are truly in love, then you are not doing it right.

Bestfriends. :)

I will start telling stories about my bestfriend and me. So here we are. He’s 5’9 and I’m 5’flat. We knew each other way back 2000 when he attended our Sunday School Class. He was fat then.  I bullied him at first but he just stares at me like mad. 

As years past by, we are still rivals. Our school is their schools best rivals in everything. So every Sunday, we are like arguing whose school is the best.

Highschool. We went to the same school. But we are rivals in honor ranking. We’re seatmates and we always fight. 

He made me cry when we were at 2nd year level, but after then, we became closer. IDK why.

We both became busy when we were in 3rd year, because he is running for a Corps Commander Position for our CAT, and I am working with the School News paper. 

4th year. My mom got hospitalized. I am so down one day I got to school. Then he went near me, kissed me on my forehead, fixed my hair and said, “Smile!”

After then, I saw him in a different way. I never felt this feeling before. As for his concerns, I always wanted to be the one  who can solve his problems. One day, he got sick or knocked out because of drinking too much EXTRA JOSS, since it’s our intramurals. He have girlfriend that time. But his girlfriend was left unaware about him, so I said to myself, “IF YOUR GIRLFRIEND WILL NOT DO ANYTHING, THEN I’LL TAKE CARE OF YOU, NO MATTER WHAT.”

I never knew that I am so much concern about him, after he plays a game, I wipe his sweat, give him new clothes and give him water. Then I realize, I am in love with my bestfriend.

story to be continued … :)

Wedding

When I was 15 years old, I got fascinated by weddings and everything about it.

Whenever I attend weddings, I always search about the story of the lovers. How they met? How they fell in love? And How the guy ask for the girl's hands. It's so nice to hear stories that are true. Stories that I know will last forever. One story I heard was the story of Kuya Romel and his wife. They knew each other via cellphone. But it's so amazing that their relationship works our like other relationships.

Of all the wedding I witnessed,  my favorite was my brother's wedding. It was a special day for our family because it was the first wedding that we will be organizing. I can’t help but cry when I saw my brother's fiancee walking along the red carpet to the altar and while my brother was waiting happily to his girl, no matter how long the girl walks, he will wait. As they say each other's vows, they're crying, so was I.

On every wedding that I've witnessed, I always put myself on the bride's shoe. Imagining myself walking along the red carpet to the altar while my groom is waiting for me at the altar no matter how long I walk. I wonder how it feels when you know that at that moment, you will be standing beside that man you love and loves you, exchanging vows and saying, "I DO".

I know it is so early for me to imagine those things, but I am so excited for the moment that I will  be the most special girl for a guy. I know that in God's time, I will meet the guy for me. And I know that I will be the happiest girl to have met the guy that God made for me.

"To the guy of my life, you are still a pilgrim of my imagination. Though I never seen your face, never looked in your eyes, never heard your voice, I know that soon, we will be in love. "

Keep dreaming, keep praying, keep believing. :)

God Bless!